Time to get Real!!

Ok, so this is where Im at!...... since round 2 2012 I have gained 5kg. Which isnt too bad, but man I am not happy with myself. In saying that, I accept where Im at, I know where I went wrong. I allowed myself to be convinced my own voice in my head to eat what I want again, and i could still be in control.... How wrong was I?! It started when a weekend before the round 2 finale 2012. I had gotten to 68.2kg. Feeling great that clothes were fitting me amazingly! feeling confident too! So what has seen me slip?

It started when my sister living at my parents with her bf, assaulted me. I should have walked away from the heated discussion with my dad while he was getting all hysterical about a subject we were talking about. But its too late for wishes, it happened. My sister came in to tell us to keep it down. My dad went off at her and then she turned her attention on me, attacking me verbally and then throwing things at me. I Got up to block her and thats when she got hold of me and pinned me down trying to choke me. Ripped a big chunk of hair out of my head and somewhere along the line I broke my hand. I felt like I was fighting for dear life. My son and nephew saw it and went into shock crying.

It was a horrible moment, as no one was around to help me. My husband was away working and her boyfriend just watched on. I managed to bite her hand and break skin. I think the worse part was the Police did nothing about it. And because they lied to the police, it was just considered a fight between two sisters and no one was the victim. I was the victim!!! But no one cared.

Anyway I lost weight for a few weeks while recovering but then that turned into emotional eating. I also had to quit the gym due to finances and then had a fall out with people and ones I worked out with so that fell to the side. Being on my own wasnt a problem for me, but it was all leading to alot of stress on my shoulders and I just stopped!

I started round 4, a couple of kgs heavier than when I finished rd 2, which wasnt a problem I thought I could lose it. Four weeks in and with all the weight training I was doing I had gained weight. Knowing that I had weight to lose I didnt want to gain anymore. Lean and strong really does do your head if all you worry about is numbers.

So I fell of the wagon with holidays, and injury. Its just seemed impossible to get back on track which was a first for me. I have never struggled this much before. I would make a commitment to eating better and exercising and then fail a few days later.

So here I am, allowing others, emotions, and excuses take control of my life. And this where I want it to end! I am taking control!! No more victim mentality!! I am strong, and leaving all the crap behind!! Time to get on with the show! Make time for ME!! LETTING IT ALL GO!!!! Goodbye NEGATIVITY!!!

Me Time!

So, this week I have been giving myself more time for me. Life gets pretty hectic when hubby's work schedule gets turned upside down, coming home on days he is supposed to be working and working on days he is supposed to be taking off. We have finally reached school holidays for my son and in between, taking him to school, picking him up, avoiding the cleaning by going to the gym, and shopping and plenty of coffees, Ive been feeling a little run down and emotional. I decided that this week I would take it easier as far as the gym is concerned. I have been working out from Monday until Thursday. Friday came along and I was lacking in sleep and needed a rest. I did get out for a walk with the kids and a good friend and did some cleaning and washing. Something that had been avoided for most of the week. It felt nice to have the house a bit more normal. Saturday is my usual SSS, but this weekend I put my focus on a few more important matters, which meant I was giving something to myself, to my children and to my God, which was sharing bible truths with people. Now I'm not going to get all preachy on here, I am a very honest person that is all. But preaching is something I have put off for most of the year and when I share bible truths with people it is not only giving something to others but I get a benefit of sharing or giving to others, whether they respond favorably or not. It set my children and I up for quite a relaxing a peaceful afternoon. I have to say that my weekend has actually been quick relaxing, And I am actually looking forward to my plans for the week of exercise, now that i have had a rest and time to refocus. I get to tackle SSS on Monday, and keep following the plan for the rest of the week.

I was feeling quite overwhelmed and starting to lose interest in everything this past week, knowing that I wasn't fitting in the important things into my schedule. My husband was getting upset when he came home seeing that things weren't running smoothly. He does help me catch up on the housework and we share the cooking too. So its time to get my diary back out and fill it in, and stop spending so much time on facebook!! Such a horrid invention at times!! Its actually probably a good thing that my phone screen cracked, as I am not on it 24/7 like I was, it was becoming a problem, and a bad addiction.

So! I'm looking forward to getting on with the show, and feel refreshed for the new week. I hope you all have a great week of healthy eating and exercise!

Dress shopping!!

So last week was a really busy one for me, gymming and dress shopping. Now i know its early but i love a bit of retail therapy, so decided since i am only a couple of kgs away from my goal weight it wouldnt hurt to look at dresses for finale. I do have the option of changing it closer to date if i still have it on layby and it doesnt fit, though the dress i have chosen is rather snug and I love it, so does hubby.

I have already planned my weekend before finale, and the weekend of finale. Im so excited about the fact that I can finally go!

Onto the subject of exercise, I have been thoroughly enjoying the workouts in the Lean and Fit program. They are challenging, but I am really seeing results I havent seen in a while. Having an ankle injury in the first round this year, saw me not being able to do as much as I wanted and alot of my gym work was focussed on recovery, so i got to the point that I wasnt getting the results from my workouts that I wanted. After 3 rounds I felt I was really ready to conquer lean and fit. I run so much more and sometimes the workouts are spew worthy!! I love the toning days the most, it really challenges me regarding what weights I use and though I am hurting so much I make myself finish the reps, even if i need to stop for 30secs or so to continue, i make sure i finish them. That way i feel i have done my workout with integrity. I find even on my toning days I burn quite alot of calories. I much prefer my workouts in the gym then the classes.

My wonderful hubby went down to perth for some job courses just last week and decided to pop into a Lorna Jane store for me! It was hard to judge what size to get as I wasnt there, but he came home with all Medium sizing, which is around size 12 and to my utter joy and surprise the clothing fit and look amazing!! Even the sports bra was a medium and fits me!! It just makes me feel like all my hard work is really paying off!! From size 18 to size 12! Im loving my new body and the results!! My hubby tells me how proud he is of me and talks about me being a fitness freak, even to his doctor!

The only negative Ive had is my weekend workout didnt happen. I got to the gym and after a really stressful morning with my a.d.d son, I just couldnt get my mind and body to function! I did my 1km trial run which i normal do with ease, 7seconds faster then last time, but my body was screaming the whole time I was running. I finished my run and laid down for 5 minutes. I think part of it was still not feeling 100% from being quite ill a week or so ago, and feeling like I was pushing myself too hard when I was needing to rest more.

Anyway, to make up for my non existant workout on Saturday I decided to do this weekends SSS today. I burnt 820 calories. I was a challenging workout with so many squats and pushups. I think the easiest part of my work out was the step ups. Even the ab work was hard. Was so glad I got through it. I certainly sweated up a storm!

Anyway, here is the dress I have decided on. If I keep going the way I am with my nutrition and exercise by the time finale comes round I might be too slim for it!! See how I go!!

So Im gonna be fat anyway, why bother!??

This is the line my father gave me a few days ago as regards my weight loss!! Aparently genetics will see me balloon to a huge size and unforseen circumstances that prevent me from exercising will see me put on weight!

I DONT THINK SO!!!

The best thing about this program is learning to change your mindset toward food and oneself that most importantly sees me with success. Now i have said in the past nutrition has been the hardest thing to change for me, but the thing about it is, I am changing, I know when I go wrong and the best part about it is I make the effort to change. Im not perfect, and stuff up occassionally, but this is my journey, and Im the one putting in the effort! This is not one of those fad diets that gets you starving yourself or limiting certain foods, rather, learning to have a positive view on food. That it is a source of fuel, that eating a wide variety of healthy foods is good for your body, wholefoods, real food is good for you and taking out the proccessed, sugary and salty foods, leads to better health in the future as we get older.

When man was created, we were made to eat vegetable based foods, it wasnt until after the great flood of Noahs day that humans started eating meat, for sources of iron and protein. If we look at this fact, it shows what should be in our diets mostly. We are surrounded by so much proccessed, fake food these days and its shoved down our throats so to speak through the media, its no wonder people have this perception that we all will end up fat eventually.

I am so thankful that I chose this program, in a way its rebooted my thinking on food and how i wish to live my life. I may not be able to exercise as much as i do now when I am much older but i certainly will have the power to choose the right food and correct portions to keep me living healthily in to the future.

So while he is pretending to have X syndrome ( which means you cant lose weight no matter what you do) while shoving KFC down his throat, Im going to continue on my merry way, with plenty of healthy food in my diet, without portion distortion, and get in the exercise I need on a daily basis. Heres to a healthy future and no fat ass!!

p.s I dont hate my father, i just cant stand the crap he says at times!

Where did my self belief go????

So I thought i would write about the past week or so. I know Ive been filling you in with a bit about my history with 12wbt, but now its time to write about how things are going currently.

As per usual, when my husband comes home, I seem to find myself eating foods that are not benefiting my health or my weight loss. Having someone in my household that criticizes every healthy meal I make really at times wears me down. I love my husband to bits but he can be such a stressful person to live with, especially since i only see him once every 2 weeks. And when he comes home fills the house with so much chocolate, chips, and any other type of unhealthy snack imaginable, that I find myself reaching for a chocolate, or a handful of chips or a glass of coke zero, trying to convince myself i can work it off, but in reality, its really working against what Ive been working so darn hard for!!

I have 4, probably 5kg after my husbands week home, to work off this round and we are almost 1/3 of the way through and here I am plateauing!! I'm so close to my goal i can see it, but as my good friend and trainer at the gym said to me this week, you can workout as hard as you want but your best results are seen in the kitchen, eating clean is the way to lose those last few kg!! A little kick in the guts for me, because I know it already that's what i need to do!!

So my aim this week, throw out all the "snack" food my hubby has brought into the house, and get off my lazy butt, I'm no longer sick, so cant use that as an excuse, and get cooking all those meals that Ive made an effort to print out from last week and this week that I can freeze. Get ORGANISED!! Hubby isn't here to interfere, so JFDI!!

From right NOW, I am telling myself "I can do this!! I am strong, I BELIEVE IN MYSELF!! You will conquer, and break this brick wall of self doubt!!" (despite downing a jack daniels, and half a packet of pringles, bloody hell, i should have thrown them out before opening them!.... OK the rest are now in the bin!!)

I read through my commitment again today and noted I said I would do this program with honesty and truth and that I would be fully committed to this program. I started out great, but let sickness and the stress of dealing with things with hubby get to me. Now he is out of the picture, so to speak, well for 2 weeks that is, I can refocus and recommit to this mission of losing the last 5kg.

Here's to the rest of 12wbt round 2, getting on with the show and becoming lean and fit!! Love ya's!!

Newsletter at local Gym!!

Just thought I would share the newsletter that my local gym did on me this month! Its great to be able to share my story, but feel funny they have the story plastered all over the gym! lol. just a little self conscious!

I have changed my goals since this story was written as i now run 2km regularly, and fully focussed on following the Lean and Fit program! Well anyway im just copying and pasting the story from what they sent me. Hope you enjoy!!

P.s there is a bit of promoting of the gym that i didnt really say, but its totally expected! Im just happy i could promote 12wbt! It must have worked since so many people in Kalgoorlie this round have joined the program!! :)

Newsletter Copy – Susanne Nona          

Just a year ago, Susanne Nona was suffering with chronic fatigue and weighed 88kgs. One night, whilst watching The Biggest Loser at home, Susanne decided it was time to make a change. The program inspired her to get fit and change her lifestyle – and now she’s down to 70kgs and feeling happier and healthier than ever!

Susanne, 29, is originally from Perth but has lived in Kalgoorlie for eight years. She lives with her husband Joey and their two children Malachi, 6 and new baby Amelia, 18 months. She’s agreed to share her story with us.

Susanne said: “I have suffered from chronic fatigue for many years following a bout of glandular fever at 17 years of age. It’s a really hard illness to deal with and it took years for doctors to diagnose me properly. There is no cure for the illness, symptoms of which include low immune system, aches and pains and fatigue; however I have found that exercise has helped heaps. Losing weight has definitely improved all of my symptoms and given me a new lease of life.

“I began my journey after watching the Biggest Loser. It really inspired me to change my lifestyle and get fit and healthy. Many times I have tried to lose weight and haven’t been very successful. I needed help. The reality is I needed to stop looking for quick fixes and work hard to change my life. I began researching ways to kick start my new lifestyle and settled on the Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. I can’t recommend this more highly – the support, mindset lessons, exercise and nutrition plans have helped me so much I’m now on my fourth round. It truly changed the way I thought about food and it revolutionised my lifestyle.

“In addition to the Michelle Bridges plan, I also joined the Oasis. I made the most of the free support that the Oasis offers and had my fitness appraisal and received my personalised gym program. This helped me get going in the right direction and get a feel of what I enjoyed and what worked. I regularly get my programs updated to keep me interested and challenged; Rae, one of the Oasis gym instructors, has been amazing and helped inspire and push me so much.

“My workouts are always varied; I complete my gym program at the Oasis, do group fitness classes like Attack and Combat (I started out with the lower impact ones and worked my way up), I do some boxing, circuit work and a lot of running with a family friend. Kate has helped me believe in myself again and continue to reach my potential, which she really knows, because of growing up with my family.  This means, I have to work harder than I would like to get away with! All in all I try to do something four or five days a week.”

“I love running and keep setting myself little goals. I can now run 1km in 5 minutes, so my new goals now are to run 2km, 5km and complete the Women’s Triathlon this year. I’m enjoying my journey so much that I’m studying my Cert 3 in Fitness now… so who knows where that will take me!

“I just love the Oasis. The reception staff are so nice and always remember my name, the gym staff are so qualified and inspiring and my children just adore the crèche girls. I’ve been to other gyms and they just don’t even compare.

“I am aiming to lose another 5kgs before I reach my target weight; but I’m well on my way. At this point I want to share my story and encourage other people. It is possible. It just takes a lot of hard work. Don’t make excuses – no matter what your situation you can work round it. Don’t be afraid to reach your dreams. Just Focus and Do it!!

A bit more about myself

Well i know last blog entry i was going to tell you about our Kalgoorlie crew, but after reading Lisa Hethringtons blog entry, Ive been inspired to try to attempt to write abit more of an in depth about myself. I have so many thoughts about where to begin, and my problem is when i attempt to share my story i only scratch the surface and never really let people know the true me.

 The person i once was, is now a shadow of what i have become. I must say, this program of 12wbt has certainly changed me. Ive become a much more confident within myself and how i deal with other people. I certainly don't put up with others garbage but i certainly know how to control myself in a situation and know when to speak up. The mindset lessons, are really something i have taken into every aspect of my life, not just when it comes to food and exercise.

Doing my fourth round, I find the mindset lessons still very informative and take something new away from them each time. Since I've been quite ill over the last 4 to 5 days, and mostly in bed, its given me time to think about things. My hubby was asking me how much doing this program has cost me. When i told how much he was shocked at the amount. But i told him if i were to hire a personal trainer, i would spend that much in a fortnight as i do for 12 weeks doing this program and not get half of the invaluable information i receive.

Like I've said it before to so many people, Michelle has to be doing this out of the love of it than the money, even though so many people are doing the program now, she could easily charge a lot more money and yet provides so much more than any other program out there. I personally really appreciate it. Especially since its changed my life.

I have learnt to trust that the program works. Trust is a big issue for me, and i go around thinking that i cant rely on anyone except for myself. I am learning to allow help, and no that even tho i attempt to be a super woman everyday, being a mother, wife and every other person you have to be to get through each day, that there is nothing wrong with asking for help. Part of my problem has been, know who is genuinely there for you. So many people say, if you need help, just ask, but when you ask, no one is around to help. So I've turned around and said stuff it! Slowly but surely, i have found the right people to be around that truly want to be around to help me. And even though this program is not a person, it has been something i have learnt to trust. I realised i cant do it on my own and need that extra help. I trust it works and I'm seeing the results!

Here is my results from round 2 last year to now.... :)
p.s I'm actually slightly slimmer than this now too!!

Hope you enjoy your read!

SusieNona! xx