Me Time!

So, this week I have been giving myself more time for me. Life gets pretty hectic when hubby's work schedule gets turned upside down, coming home on days he is supposed to be working and working on days he is supposed to be taking off. We have finally reached school holidays for my son and in between, taking him to school, picking him up, avoiding the cleaning by going to the gym, and shopping and plenty of coffees, Ive been feeling a little run down and emotional. I decided that this week I would take it easier as far as the gym is concerned. I have been working out from Monday until Thursday. Friday came along and I was lacking in sleep and needed a rest. I did get out for a walk with the kids and a good friend and did some cleaning and washing. Something that had been avoided for most of the week. It felt nice to have the house a bit more normal. Saturday is my usual SSS, but this weekend I put my focus on a few more important matters, which meant I was giving something to myself, to my children and to my God, which was sharing bible truths with people. Now I'm not going to get all preachy on here, I am a very honest person that is all. But preaching is something I have put off for most of the year and when I share bible truths with people it is not only giving something to others but I get a benefit of sharing or giving to others, whether they respond favorably or not. It set my children and I up for quite a relaxing a peaceful afternoon. I have to say that my weekend has actually been quick relaxing, And I am actually looking forward to my plans for the week of exercise, now that i have had a rest and time to refocus. I get to tackle SSS on Monday, and keep following the plan for the rest of the week.

I was feeling quite overwhelmed and starting to lose interest in everything this past week, knowing that I wasn't fitting in the important things into my schedule. My husband was getting upset when he came home seeing that things weren't running smoothly. He does help me catch up on the housework and we share the cooking too. So its time to get my diary back out and fill it in, and stop spending so much time on facebook!! Such a horrid invention at times!! Its actually probably a good thing that my phone screen cracked, as I am not on it 24/7 like I was, it was becoming a problem, and a bad addiction.

So! I'm looking forward to getting on with the show, and feel refreshed for the new week. I hope you all have a great week of healthy eating and exercise!

Dress shopping!!

So last week was a really busy one for me, gymming and dress shopping. Now i know its early but i love a bit of retail therapy, so decided since i am only a couple of kgs away from my goal weight it wouldnt hurt to look at dresses for finale. I do have the option of changing it closer to date if i still have it on layby and it doesnt fit, though the dress i have chosen is rather snug and I love it, so does hubby.

I have already planned my weekend before finale, and the weekend of finale. Im so excited about the fact that I can finally go!

Onto the subject of exercise, I have been thoroughly enjoying the workouts in the Lean and Fit program. They are challenging, but I am really seeing results I havent seen in a while. Having an ankle injury in the first round this year, saw me not being able to do as much as I wanted and alot of my gym work was focussed on recovery, so i got to the point that I wasnt getting the results from my workouts that I wanted. After 3 rounds I felt I was really ready to conquer lean and fit. I run so much more and sometimes the workouts are spew worthy!! I love the toning days the most, it really challenges me regarding what weights I use and though I am hurting so much I make myself finish the reps, even if i need to stop for 30secs or so to continue, i make sure i finish them. That way i feel i have done my workout with integrity. I find even on my toning days I burn quite alot of calories. I much prefer my workouts in the gym then the classes.

My wonderful hubby went down to perth for some job courses just last week and decided to pop into a Lorna Jane store for me! It was hard to judge what size to get as I wasnt there, but he came home with all Medium sizing, which is around size 12 and to my utter joy and surprise the clothing fit and look amazing!! Even the sports bra was a medium and fits me!! It just makes me feel like all my hard work is really paying off!! From size 18 to size 12! Im loving my new body and the results!! My hubby tells me how proud he is of me and talks about me being a fitness freak, even to his doctor!

The only negative Ive had is my weekend workout didnt happen. I got to the gym and after a really stressful morning with my a.d.d son, I just couldnt get my mind and body to function! I did my 1km trial run which i normal do with ease, 7seconds faster then last time, but my body was screaming the whole time I was running. I finished my run and laid down for 5 minutes. I think part of it was still not feeling 100% from being quite ill a week or so ago, and feeling like I was pushing myself too hard when I was needing to rest more.

Anyway, to make up for my non existant workout on Saturday I decided to do this weekends SSS today. I burnt 820 calories. I was a challenging workout with so many squats and pushups. I think the easiest part of my work out was the step ups. Even the ab work was hard. Was so glad I got through it. I certainly sweated up a storm!

Anyway, here is the dress I have decided on. If I keep going the way I am with my nutrition and exercise by the time finale comes round I might be too slim for it!! See how I go!!

So Im gonna be fat anyway, why bother!??

This is the line my father gave me a few days ago as regards my weight loss!! Aparently genetics will see me balloon to a huge size and unforseen circumstances that prevent me from exercising will see me put on weight!

I DONT THINK SO!!!

The best thing about this program is learning to change your mindset toward food and oneself that most importantly sees me with success. Now i have said in the past nutrition has been the hardest thing to change for me, but the thing about it is, I am changing, I know when I go wrong and the best part about it is I make the effort to change. Im not perfect, and stuff up occassionally, but this is my journey, and Im the one putting in the effort! This is not one of those fad diets that gets you starving yourself or limiting certain foods, rather, learning to have a positive view on food. That it is a source of fuel, that eating a wide variety of healthy foods is good for your body, wholefoods, real food is good for you and taking out the proccessed, sugary and salty foods, leads to better health in the future as we get older.

When man was created, we were made to eat vegetable based foods, it wasnt until after the great flood of Noahs day that humans started eating meat, for sources of iron and protein. If we look at this fact, it shows what should be in our diets mostly. We are surrounded by so much proccessed, fake food these days and its shoved down our throats so to speak through the media, its no wonder people have this perception that we all will end up fat eventually.

I am so thankful that I chose this program, in a way its rebooted my thinking on food and how i wish to live my life. I may not be able to exercise as much as i do now when I am much older but i certainly will have the power to choose the right food and correct portions to keep me living healthily in to the future.

So while he is pretending to have X syndrome ( which means you cant lose weight no matter what you do) while shoving KFC down his throat, Im going to continue on my merry way, with plenty of healthy food in my diet, without portion distortion, and get in the exercise I need on a daily basis. Heres to a healthy future and no fat ass!!

p.s I dont hate my father, i just cant stand the crap he says at times!

Where did my self belief go????

So I thought i would write about the past week or so. I know Ive been filling you in with a bit about my history with 12wbt, but now its time to write about how things are going currently.

As per usual, when my husband comes home, I seem to find myself eating foods that are not benefiting my health or my weight loss. Having someone in my household that criticizes every healthy meal I make really at times wears me down. I love my husband to bits but he can be such a stressful person to live with, especially since i only see him once every 2 weeks. And when he comes home fills the house with so much chocolate, chips, and any other type of unhealthy snack imaginable, that I find myself reaching for a chocolate, or a handful of chips or a glass of coke zero, trying to convince myself i can work it off, but in reality, its really working against what Ive been working so darn hard for!!

I have 4, probably 5kg after my husbands week home, to work off this round and we are almost 1/3 of the way through and here I am plateauing!! I'm so close to my goal i can see it, but as my good friend and trainer at the gym said to me this week, you can workout as hard as you want but your best results are seen in the kitchen, eating clean is the way to lose those last few kg!! A little kick in the guts for me, because I know it already that's what i need to do!!

So my aim this week, throw out all the "snack" food my hubby has brought into the house, and get off my lazy butt, I'm no longer sick, so cant use that as an excuse, and get cooking all those meals that Ive made an effort to print out from last week and this week that I can freeze. Get ORGANISED!! Hubby isn't here to interfere, so JFDI!!

From right NOW, I am telling myself "I can do this!! I am strong, I BELIEVE IN MYSELF!! You will conquer, and break this brick wall of self doubt!!" (despite downing a jack daniels, and half a packet of pringles, bloody hell, i should have thrown them out before opening them!.... OK the rest are now in the bin!!)

I read through my commitment again today and noted I said I would do this program with honesty and truth and that I would be fully committed to this program. I started out great, but let sickness and the stress of dealing with things with hubby get to me. Now he is out of the picture, so to speak, well for 2 weeks that is, I can refocus and recommit to this mission of losing the last 5kg.

Here's to the rest of 12wbt round 2, getting on with the show and becoming lean and fit!! Love ya's!!

Newsletter at local Gym!!

Just thought I would share the newsletter that my local gym did on me this month! Its great to be able to share my story, but feel funny they have the story plastered all over the gym! lol. just a little self conscious!

I have changed my goals since this story was written as i now run 2km regularly, and fully focussed on following the Lean and Fit program! Well anyway im just copying and pasting the story from what they sent me. Hope you enjoy!!

P.s there is a bit of promoting of the gym that i didnt really say, but its totally expected! Im just happy i could promote 12wbt! It must have worked since so many people in Kalgoorlie this round have joined the program!! :)

Newsletter Copy – Susanne Nona          

Just a year ago, Susanne Nona was suffering with chronic fatigue and weighed 88kgs. One night, whilst watching The Biggest Loser at home, Susanne decided it was time to make a change. The program inspired her to get fit and change her lifestyle – and now she’s down to 70kgs and feeling happier and healthier than ever!

Susanne, 29, is originally from Perth but has lived in Kalgoorlie for eight years. She lives with her husband Joey and their two children Malachi, 6 and new baby Amelia, 18 months. She’s agreed to share her story with us.

Susanne said: “I have suffered from chronic fatigue for many years following a bout of glandular fever at 17 years of age. It’s a really hard illness to deal with and it took years for doctors to diagnose me properly. There is no cure for the illness, symptoms of which include low immune system, aches and pains and fatigue; however I have found that exercise has helped heaps. Losing weight has definitely improved all of my symptoms and given me a new lease of life.

“I began my journey after watching the Biggest Loser. It really inspired me to change my lifestyle and get fit and healthy. Many times I have tried to lose weight and haven’t been very successful. I needed help. The reality is I needed to stop looking for quick fixes and work hard to change my life. I began researching ways to kick start my new lifestyle and settled on the Michelle Bridges 12 Week Body Transformation. I can’t recommend this more highly – the support, mindset lessons, exercise and nutrition plans have helped me so much I’m now on my fourth round. It truly changed the way I thought about food and it revolutionised my lifestyle.

“In addition to the Michelle Bridges plan, I also joined the Oasis. I made the most of the free support that the Oasis offers and had my fitness appraisal and received my personalised gym program. This helped me get going in the right direction and get a feel of what I enjoyed and what worked. I regularly get my programs updated to keep me interested and challenged; Rae, one of the Oasis gym instructors, has been amazing and helped inspire and push me so much.

“My workouts are always varied; I complete my gym program at the Oasis, do group fitness classes like Attack and Combat (I started out with the lower impact ones and worked my way up), I do some boxing, circuit work and a lot of running with a family friend. Kate has helped me believe in myself again and continue to reach my potential, which she really knows, because of growing up with my family.  This means, I have to work harder than I would like to get away with! All in all I try to do something four or five days a week.”

“I love running and keep setting myself little goals. I can now run 1km in 5 minutes, so my new goals now are to run 2km, 5km and complete the Women’s Triathlon this year. I’m enjoying my journey so much that I’m studying my Cert 3 in Fitness now… so who knows where that will take me!

“I just love the Oasis. The reception staff are so nice and always remember my name, the gym staff are so qualified and inspiring and my children just adore the crèche girls. I’ve been to other gyms and they just don’t even compare.

“I am aiming to lose another 5kgs before I reach my target weight; but I’m well on my way. At this point I want to share my story and encourage other people. It is possible. It just takes a lot of hard work. Don’t make excuses – no matter what your situation you can work round it. Don’t be afraid to reach your dreams. Just Focus and Do it!!

A bit more about myself

Well i know last blog entry i was going to tell you about our Kalgoorlie crew, but after reading Lisa Hethringtons blog entry, Ive been inspired to try to attempt to write abit more of an in depth about myself. I have so many thoughts about where to begin, and my problem is when i attempt to share my story i only scratch the surface and never really let people know the true me.

 The person i once was, is now a shadow of what i have become. I must say, this program of 12wbt has certainly changed me. Ive become a much more confident within myself and how i deal with other people. I certainly don't put up with others garbage but i certainly know how to control myself in a situation and know when to speak up. The mindset lessons, are really something i have taken into every aspect of my life, not just when it comes to food and exercise.

Doing my fourth round, I find the mindset lessons still very informative and take something new away from them each time. Since I've been quite ill over the last 4 to 5 days, and mostly in bed, its given me time to think about things. My hubby was asking me how much doing this program has cost me. When i told how much he was shocked at the amount. But i told him if i were to hire a personal trainer, i would spend that much in a fortnight as i do for 12 weeks doing this program and not get half of the invaluable information i receive.

Like I've said it before to so many people, Michelle has to be doing this out of the love of it than the money, even though so many people are doing the program now, she could easily charge a lot more money and yet provides so much more than any other program out there. I personally really appreciate it. Especially since its changed my life.

I have learnt to trust that the program works. Trust is a big issue for me, and i go around thinking that i cant rely on anyone except for myself. I am learning to allow help, and no that even tho i attempt to be a super woman everyday, being a mother, wife and every other person you have to be to get through each day, that there is nothing wrong with asking for help. Part of my problem has been, know who is genuinely there for you. So many people say, if you need help, just ask, but when you ask, no one is around to help. So I've turned around and said stuff it! Slowly but surely, i have found the right people to be around that truly want to be around to help me. And even though this program is not a person, it has been something i have learnt to trust. I realised i cant do it on my own and need that extra help. I trust it works and I'm seeing the results!

Here is my results from round 2 last year to now.... :)
p.s I'm actually slightly slimmer than this now too!!

Hope you enjoy your read!

SusieNona! xx

Sickness

Since last friday, Ive been sick with tonsilitis. Its left me feeling weak, feverish for 2 days, headaches and very sore throat. So ive been resting up, trying to cope. Its the worst feeling when all you want to go to the gym and bein stuck in bed resting up. It is all for the best though.

So i wanted to share with you a little about the last three rounds. Last year when i started 12wbt, i didnt know of anyone doing the program in Kalgoorlie. In a town of 35,000 i was hoping for at least one person! Anyway, i had heard there was one other, but i never got round to meeting her. I did meet one lady i did boxing with that did the first round of 12wbt in 2011. Apart from that i was pretty much on my own and wishing i had some more support.

I started out doing my fitness tests in my little backyard. I made a circuit from one side of the yard and around the clothesline and back. And 1km estimated to around 27 to 28 laps. After being brave enough to join the gym i started expanding where i did my work outs. Going from dvds, my backyard to the group work outs and the local oval to do my fitness test.

I found alot of comfort in writing my blog on the forums and at the time didnt have a clue how to start a blog like this one up. Getting the occasional reply and especially from Lisa Hethrington, gave me a great deal of encouragement to keep going. Changing habits that when i think about it were really a life time and finally caught up with me and increased as an adult are really hard to change. I had good moments and bad, even through out the last round i did. I find fitness easier to work on and improve than nutrition. I am certainly getting there though!! I wouldnt have lost weight if i wasnt improving.

Doing two rounds of Huggies, was amazing. I loved the smaller less crowded forums, and it was really sad to see in the end the forums were really being used. Even in this round now that the two are combined, though at the moment there are many in the forums, i still see many in the facebook groups, spend much more time on facebook and little if any time on the forums. I find the forums really encouraging. Though facebook can be instant, i would definitely agree with the forums being where you get accurate advice from.

I remember late last round i went off at a few in the huggies facebook group because very few had been on the forums on the 12wbt website. They were nominating someone from the group as being encouraging or inspiring. Now nothing against who they choose. But my point was no one should be considered unworthy of praise if you dont know or havent read their story. Next thing the forums were busy again. I adore these ladies for the encouragement they share on the facebook group. I like to speak up when i think something is not right, which usually ends up with me in hot water. But i can live with that. I have been most of my life, getting in trouble for what i believe in!!

Anyhow, here is a pic of the 12wbt crew in Kalgoorlie! It is only a pinch of the whole group, as we have gone from 30 to 50 members since last round!! I will tell you more about them next blogg!! :)

Round 2 2012 12wbt

I started writing my blog on the 12wbt website, but to be apart of the weekly surprise I am back at blogging on my Blogger.

A bit about myself! Im a fourth round 12wbter, In the three recent rounds I lost a total of 18kg. I have 2 beautiful children aged 6 and 19mths, who keep me very busy and my best friend and hubby who works many hours to keep our family going which means he has to work away and for 2 weeks at a time I am on my own raising the kids and running the house. It can be difficult at times, as I suffer chronic fatigue, other wise known as Fibro myalgia. Many of the symptoms include, low immune system, body aches and pains, migraines and fatigue. The list goes on, but i think i would bore you with it. Its something i have been coping with for over 10years now. And my hubby has learnt to bear with it as he finds it hard with all the naps i need to take just to cope on a daily basis.

When I started this weightloss I was a little scared by it all, scared that i would fail once again at attempting to lose weight, and end up bigger than when i first started, which is the way it used to be every  other attempt i made at losing weight. I have not always been overweight. I was quite slim and athletic growing up. I was always apart of the faction and interschool carnivals, and won a few trophies, though they were runnerups I was pretty proud of myself.

So back to beginning 12wbt. First round I lost 9kg, and the last 2 rounds a total of 9 all together again. Its been a really interesting journey. Earlier in this blogg i wrote about having a miscarriage through my second round of 12wbt which set me back with my weightloss, and took several months to get over. It took my body at least 4 months to start working regularly and through the last round my sister lost twins which sent me back emotionally to how i felt when i lost my baby. I have to admit i was pretty hard on myself. I really didnt cope and I ate emotionally which didnt help me at all!

This round, I have started alot more focussed. I smashed my one month goal hours after i set it, which was to run 2km non stop! I saw there was a competition at the gym to run the fastest 2km. Well i know i wouldnt be the fastest but i certainly saw the challenge to run the 2kms as achieveable. I got throught the 2km in 12mins. I felt like it killed me after! After a bit of a rest i got into my workout and realised how refreshing it was, like flushing the cobwebs out of the system. It set me up for a great work out!

This round is lean and fit for me, so will be blogging about it soon!! :)

The new round is here!!!

So its been a few weeks since i last posted.... well i think... mummy brain kicking in, anyway its time i wrote in my blog again!

What has been happening for me of late?? Well firstly I am very proud to say that i am entering into the new round under my last round weight!! yay!!! I am 73kg and feeling great!! As it was an emotional time in between rounds i put on a few kilos, but have been working very hard over the last month or so to get my eating on track and exercise!

I don't know if i mentioned it earlier but I now attend body attack and have a new intense program in the gym to work on toning and running. Its quite an exhausting program and some days i cant do all the cardio.

I'm excited to say that i have finally caught up with a family friend that moved into town 2 years ago!! It has taken us this long to finally meet up! And I have found out she runs an outdoor work out session at one of the local parks that she doesn't charge for, as she is a police officer too. I can tell you it was one heck of a work out! I was wanting to puke, which is a first for me! So I'm addicted and there is nothing like having a good friend to motivate and push you beyond your limits. I have realised i haven't been pushing myself as much as i should have through the last couple of rounds. So having made changes toward my attitude when it comes to exercise means i work out meaner than i have previously.

Having some health issues i do know when to rest and look after myself. I have been going to bed earlier than i used to and pushing myself to not have a sleep during the day so that I'm not wide awake til late at night. I have really been feeling the benefits of it too.

I decided to post my original before and after pics in the huggies and the local 12wbt group as well as my new round before pic. So many are sharing their pics. It is really encouraging!

I have been also making a big effort to give encouragement to others in the forum. Reading all the task 1 introductions and being able to give encouragement to others certainly gives me a sense of satisfaction. The saying is so true, there is more happiness in giving then there is in receiving!

 Ive been sticking to my plans of being organised, such as cooking up big meals and freezing them. It certainly saves me alot of stress, especially when my hubby is working away. Also my food diary is keeping me honest. The only thing i need now is to go out and buy a diary for all my plans and red flags. I did write that i was going to do that last time, but i haven't been able to afford it. So this week I will be able to do it! I love that I am getting my self in gear. I have struggled with it for so long and the benefits of being organised far out weigh relying on my memory, which isn't that good these days!

So there you have it, i have probably missed out on a few things like usual, so when i remember it i will be back posting again!!

Hope you enjoyed the read!

Commitment Made!!

Today I made my commitment for the new round. Wow, I find this gets just a little easier each time, but it still brings up the nerves. I have to learn to shake off the self doubts and JFDI. I worry that I wont make it. Something will get in my way, an injury, sickness, etc. Not being committed means I can take it a little easier but really, my goal is to lose 10kg for the round. So I need to be committed. It takes hard work and COMMITMENT to achieve.

In between rounds has been interesting, to say the least. I have had many fall backs. The one lesson I have learnt as time is going on and the round is close to starting, I can achieve more than I ever imagined in such a long time! What have I achieved you say?? I have started attending body attack classes, I completed my first rpm class, I got up nice and early this morning and did 600 metres which is 12 laps in the pool. I felt so good after my swim this morning! I haven't been able to swim so well in over 10 years. My technique was in my eyes fantastic. Attending classes I never did in the previous rounds is such a huge achievement for me. I feel fantastic.

My ultimate goal as mentioned previously was to complete a triathlon. In October there is a women's triathlon locally and now with the local 12wbt crew going off on facebook, I have noted there are a few girls wanting to do it too! Best of all I can see myself doing it! My goals and dreams are fast becoming a reality. The triathlon maybe a fair few months away, but in that time, i can buy the road bike i need and improve on my skills in the pool, running and riding.

So my fall backs? My main one at the moment is eating clean. I recently have had a few blow outs, but one thing i have learnt about it is i can and quickly get back up and back on track. Life is about learning. I am learning to get back up and back on track alot faster these days and be completely honest about it. Using myfitnesspal has been helping me to know where and how much i go wrong. My food diary is public for my friends to see and comment. I really appreciate their support!

OK, so my commitment is to lose 10kg this round and to exercise 6 days a week rain, hail or shine!! Big commitment, but I am willing to give 120% to make it happen!! :)

How my weekend has been!

Hi everyone,

I thought i would add to my blog about how my weekend has been. I believe i have started to turn a new corner. I told myself that this time my journey would be different. I will be more prepared and more involved than the last. This isn't just about me, I need to show my support to newbies and return members. I still need support so how much more so should I be giving others my support. We are a team.

Its taking me this long to get my head around it all. Maybe I'm a slow learner and things don't click into place as quick as others but I can say I am finally doing it. To be give is so much better than receiving. I'm sure this is why Michelle created this program. It must be a joy to see all those changing their lives because of such wonderful advise!

So how has my weekend been? Well maybe i should say how has my week been. Well Its been really good I have to say. I enjoyed having my hubby home for a long weekend and since Tuesday when he left for work again I have been at the gym doing my new program. Man it is a killer!! So love it though!! I was going to rest on Saturday as I was tired and sore from my work out on Friday but changed my mind and got kids ready as I already booked the creche and headed to the gym for my usual and new addiction of Body Attack, such a great way to combat my ever increasing efforts to complete a SSS!!

One thing I didn't do the last couple of rounds was do big cook ups and freeze foods on the weekend for the week and further ahead. Well that has all changed. Earlier this week I bought I huge pumpkin and yesterday and today I cooked up 12wbt Thai pumpkin soup I have varied the sizes as some will be for feeding the kids and myself and also some with just a serve for myself. I felt like I really accomplished something huge, I am moving ahead and probably saving myself alot of money in the long run! Next weekend it will be veggie pasta!! Yumm!!

My next step is to prepare ahead for red flags! Another thing I didn't do the last few rounds. Tomorrow, as it will be a pay day for me, I will be heading out and buying a really nice diary and fancy pen, just to make it special to write all my red flag days down, I'm thinking when hubby gets home from work I should just mark that whole week as a red flag as its always hard for me! hehehe! I will be writing in my diary every morning "Flex that Will Power Muscle!"

Anyway I must get on with my evening, planning on some relaxing reading and an early night!! Goodnight my fellow 12wbters!!

:) xo

Just blogging

I felt like blogging today to talk about how I am going so far. This is my 3rd round of 12wbt, so it should be second nature to me. I have to admit I am still learning lessons about staying on path. I realise the days I don't use myfitnesspal diary I tend to fail. It reminds me of a live feed we had last round about, going back to our food diaries and seeing where we are going wrong. For me this week, its eating way to many carbs. We have been on the bones of our arses lately due to big bills and very little for food. I have had to be very creative with meals and make sure I add vegies to dinner even if its the frozen kind. I have been though eating alot of bread so ive been despite all the exercise ive been doing have been plateauing. My hubby is still in the habit of relying on staples such as rice and bread, and very little veggies. So I really have make the effort to add veggies even if I get a resounding NO from everybody! For example last night I made spaghetti bolognaise and I added veggies despite hubby would have preferred none at all. It turned out quite nice and I was praised for such a lovely meal. That's a win for me!!  Last round I actually cut alot of bread and rice out of my diet, and felt the benefit of it. Only wholemeal and multi grain bread is consumed in our house, thank goodness because my hubby used to eat only white bread, but caused him pretty bad bouts of gout!

Its so encouraging reading all the posts from everyone in the forum, some are so nervous and don't know if they will succeed, others are fired up and determined. I remember, as a newbie, (not that long ago too) I would look forward to receiving a reply by someone who had done previous rounds and knew this was a very successful program, and now its my turn to share some encouragement. It takes alot of effort sometimes to put yourself out there to leave a message for someone to reassure all will be ok and to put a smile on their face. Like Mish said, its not just about ourselves! We are a team, so we must encourage one another. Well it was along those lines. I have to admit I still like being encouraged too! :)

So today it is back to using my food diary and imprinting those new habits into my brain even deeper. If we don't remind ourselves to stay on track, we get slack!

Ive also got a very sore left leg, my knee was throbbing last night but have discovered its a very tight hamstring, making my whole leg ache. I think it may be from my new work out program. Ive been stretching it out and using a massager, my hubby calls the thumper as it literally thumps your muscles until they are loose. Best investment ever!

So on with the show!! I'm not about to give up! I want this so bad!! I will and am determined to get past this plateau!! Here we go!! :)

Preseason Begins!!

I have to say, Im so excited about this round! 12wbt has been an amazing journey so far and with all the ups and downs that come along, ive always picked myself up and kept going. Sometimes it feels like 2 steps back and 1 step forward. I truely believe its not how fast you get there its that you keep going and make it to the end of your journey!

Its been an interesting time for me inbetween season. Firstly I had a miscarriage, which i talk about in my first post, so if you have time take a gander. Secondly ive been trying to tackle the issue of self sabotage. I put on 3 kilos over the holiday break. But ive already dropped a kilo! so YaY!!! We went on holidays down to the beautiful town of Esperance with white squeeky sand, and crystal clear waters. so beautiful! You havent seen amazing beaches until you have been to Esperance!

During the inbetween rounds, Ive been learning to push myself more than i ever have before. I started attending body attack classes at the gym and I tell you I nearly died the first class but its slowly getting easier. My PT has upped the anti on my gym program too, working on alot more toning as well as interval training on the tredmill. I am learning to love running more and more. I run at an incline of 3 to 3.5% and slowly increasing my run speed. I run for 30 seconds to a minute at 8.5km and then walk for 30 seconds. I feel like i could run alot longer, but at the moment these intervals are good. I really must print out the interval training Mish has on the program.

Ive also enquired about the local Tri group! Its exciting stuff! Alot of the training is free too! My ultimate goal is to do a triathlon, so I will keep you upto date with this goal! 

One thing im concerned about is getting myself organised. I think one change i will make this round is doing cooking on the weekend and freeze certain meals. I love the pumpkin soup and I know there are a few other recipes that are freezer friendly, so thats my plan, big cook ups and freezer full of foods. Ive never been a very well organised person, though when i make the effort I reap the rewards.

Well I better go introduce myself on preseason task 1!! 

Ciao!! Mwah!!

Why the hell do i self sabotage???!!!

Ok, so I felt the need to write my blog again, since i have so much on my mind. Please excuse some of my mistakes, when i get going i tend to think faster than i write and my fingers don't keep up! :)

This has been something on my mind for a while. At first when i saw the video on self sabotage I thought, phew, I'm not a self sabotager. Well how wrong was I!? Very!! I guess its not easy that my hubby works away two weeks and comes home for one week. Now I am fantastic while he is away, I'm so used to him working away i have quite a good routine but when he comes home, its like everything flies out the window and i give myself permission to eat whatever I like and how much i want! I don't know why I do it! Maybe its because while hubby is away, i have clean food and no junk in the house but in his mind there is no food in the house to snack on so goes out for junk food. I try my best to not touch it but its soooo hard!!!

So who do i blame? Hubby for bringing the food into the house? or me for not using my will power??

It should just be simple. But losing weight is a difficult thing. I guess growing up i was always slim, athletic before getting sick, but used to eating what i want and now i cant do that! I have had this secret i haven't shared with anyone before. Sometimes, and i mean very rarely i purge. I had started out my day really well yesterday but i went down hill, with 3 party pies and two bowls of rice and sweet potato with milk and curry. Then half a packet of shapes with a dip. I was so disgusted with myself and so full. I went off to the toilet and forced myself to throw up until at least half of what i ate came out. Of course my stomach felt better but my mind didn't. I had done this with no one knowing. I even made myfitnesspal diary meal entries look like i didn't eat all that food. And today I haven't used my diary because I am so ashamed of myself and of course its been a road trip so I've eaten pretty crappy.

So where do i go from here? I am certainly not giving up my goal of losing weight becoming as healthy as I can be! I have a stubborn streak that wont let me give up, even if I'm the slowest to lose it, i will get there! I feel like i really need to sit and meditate on the last few days and really consider why I do what I do. I know what needs to be done, its putting it into action that's hard.

Sometimes i wish i had a friend to do this journey with, the go to the gym with. Yes there are some women in Kalgoorlie doing the 12wbt journey but getting round to catching up is hard. Again this is a whole different story which will get sorted. So i hope you enjoy my blog and feel free to comment. I'm certainly needing some input! xx